"Intuit" is a verb that means to understand or know something based on a feeling or sense rather than on evidence.
I once sat with a Yogi during my certification to become a meditation instructor. He cautioned all of us attending his class to be weary of Highway 42.
Highway 42?
Highway 42 is the energetic path between the 2nd Chakra of Passion/Sex and the 4th Chakra of the Heart.
He spoke about trauma blocking these two vital energy pathways in the body — and the caution of the student/teacher dynamic as this sensual energy flow is restored in the body.
When working through traumas, it can be confusing to feel alive and vital in areas of the body that were once stagnant. You feel a false sense of connection.
The student will want to water the new seed of heart and sex planted. If not aware, the teacher may also develop feelings of lust or love.
And thus, the Guru Predator is born.
The Past |
I have only personally seen this in person once between this lecture and my typing today — and it was from a distance.
I won't bore you with the details, but when the student rang the proverbial alarm bells, she was discredited and traumatized.
A community rose up, not to protect her but to silence her. To protect his integrity as the guru. To protect the predator. I can say that because we are all taught ethics as we move into leadership roles, and move through spaces as leaders. Classes on how to protect the psyche of the student.
She and I were both taking a class on Andean Cosmology and energy healing and had split into a workgroup with just the two of us. I did my task as outlined by our group leader: just listen. She told me her story and her plan for navigating the future with this issue. With him. With everyone involved.
It was a monumental task. To listen. Not advise. Not do. JUST LISTEN.
The Present |
Last night my sister sent me a text about another Guru predator.
I've been busy these past two years and deviated from spiritual/growth practices. Not plugged into any of my usual circles.
A headline from Boulder, Colorado.
A Man arrested on child exploitation charges.
I felt punched in the gut. Angry. Sad. Dirty. A little guilty.
A Mentor.
A Somewhat Crush.
Feeling physically Ill.
How/Could I Have Known? This question has been replayed in my head for the last 24 hours. A person doesn't just wake up on a random Tuesday and decide to exploit children.
How long has he been doing this?
The reality is this: I could not have known what this man was doing in the privacy of his home.
But I struggle with that, and I still feel dirty….like a thousand steaming baths couldn't clean my energy field. I feel ick by association.
I feel sad.
I feel mad.
I feel betrayed.
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